thoughts

codepen: wow they really like this!! ♥️❤️🩷❤️😻

me: why does the heart keep changing color? is it changing color? Am I seeing things

I didn't understand on codepen that I was ♥️❤️🩷 things 40 different times. I just thought it wasn't saving because the color kept changing. sometimes I'm seriously so dumb with technology.

I know it feels very weird to be in a good mood when your friends are in a bad mood but use that energy to give them funny things to look at and send weird hug gifs

"don't you know?" is such a flawed way of thinking.

Don't you know this thing that I'm assuming that you must know in order to exist in this world?

Don't you know this thing that has become common knowledge in my context and my community?

Don't you know this thing that my algorithm shows me every single day?

Don't you know this thing that you were never told or taught? No? sorry, let me reframe. can I share some knowledge with you?

local guy is local

local guy is very sleepy

everyone should read Chapter 3: More Than a Defectfrom Sitting Pretty by Rebekah Taussig. Even if you don't read the whole book you should read that chapter.

The thing with really good fast food is that it just makes you want more fast food. I haven't had enough fast food. I've only had it once.

trying to get into a relationship with someone who exclusively plays horror games so that I can watch them like a movie

when I learn to shape shift genders I hope I make a weird noise too

(I did it though, I do it for the babies. because I know they get sensory overload without it.)

babysitting a toddler is such a good form of birth control not because of the breakdowns or sticky hands but because all kids clothes are a weird texture and no I don't want to rub your back as you fall asleep I'll get sensory overload

if you are self-admitting that you're not listening to the news because there's too much to keep track of and you just don't have the time, then you don't get to comment on what's happening in the news. sorry! you just don't. "I don't think that it's that bad that he's doing this" says someone who has absolutely no context about the thing. of course you don't think it's that bad, you're taking the rhetoric and never looking into it.

every article offering fun free things to do in my city describe taking walks and looking at things

TIL D&D therapy exists

roll for mental health

Oh your grocery store doesn't have baskets? You're trying to encourage people to buy more things? you want me, a person with anxiety, to push a giant cart around just to pick up a few things? I'm never coming back.

One of my biggest pet peeves on Reddit is people who post comments to a post that are literally just "this gets posted once every 2 to 3 months lol."

I think these people assume that everyone is using Reddit the same way that they do. I can't figure out any other reason why they would think they'd get a pile on and high fives for things like this. the only time they do is other posters who are thinking the exact same thing.

You're calling yourself out.

people use Reddit in multiple different ways. most of the time when someone is going to AITA with their story about refusing a child their window seat on the plane, they've never talked to or read anything about this before. and they're not using Reddit as a search engine to learn things.

so no, first of all, they did not search first to see if anyone had their scenario, read every single AITA post about airplanes, and then decided not to post. That's not going to happen ever.

secondly, because they have only come here to make this post, sometimes even creating account for this reason, they have no idea that this gets posted all the time. they're not trying to muck up your feed, because they don't know that you are using Reddit every single fucking day and reading all of the posts from this sub.

The only reason that you know this gets posted so often is because you spend all of your time on Reddit reading things. not everyone does! and this is why I'm annoyed by this. it's always people who think that they are in the right and have the most depth and empathy of anyone in the entire world, but can't see why someone might make a Reddit post that is a repeat of the same one that you saw two days ago.

You're really not as empathetic as you think. it's clearly just posturing.

it's been so long since I've used Amazon when did they change the colors of all the buttons

sometimes cats are just a tongue

I'm excited to report that I'll be camping for Halloween because I found a campsite that does a Halloween party

I think the only thing that would help me is if I could spend lots of money. who wants to give me money that I can spend so I can temporarily make myself feel better

the best part of my walk today was the slight breeze off the water balancing the dry heat of the sun and my uncomfortable sweat.

the worst part was cramping up and having to poop but being 15 mins from home.

big big fan fan

my zine printing order comes tomorrow! hope it's perfect since I spent so much time and money on it.

I know that I'm old but I'm getting tired of boycott "trends" and I wish people would find their beliefs and stick to them.

"who are we boycotting now?" I don't know. use your brain and figure out what you're not supportive of and boycott those things.

The downFALL of human civilization IS HERE!

The only nice thing about being sick is that I have no trouble falling asleep even if I have slept all day.

I get so sucked into the productivity curse that I forget laundry time can be downtime too. like I'm being really productive right now! My clothes are getting dried. I don't need to multitask this, let me sit down for an hour.

I don't know who needs to hear this but there doesn't need to be perfect logic for everything that you do. sometimes we do stuff just because that's what we feel like doing. sometimes there's no logic to it. sometimes it's just comforting.

so when other people say stuff like, "I don't understand why you do this! you should do it my way it's better!" remind them that it's okay for them to judge you and you don't care because it's way too much work to explain.

another one I like: it's a good thing that you don't have to understand everything everyone does for them to find value in it.

I took the weekend off from activities because I've been doing so many activities lately and I just want to rest and write and make my Halloween website.

I don't understand why everyone my age is so confused that people 20 years younger than us are adopting styles and music and interests from 20 years ago.

we, uh, did the exact same thing.

About 75% of my Halloween mail is all ready to go! I'm going to finish early this year maybe. My printer has run out of ink :(

things I've said to my cat: are you mad at me because I won't let you lick my armpits

doing my dailies (reading every post and replying to many of them, then going over my replies and deleting many of them)

dolphins were rewarded with bread dipped in wine when they helped ancient Romans catch fish

why is reading about meat so gross but reading about veggies and fruits is so fun

brokenhearted because League of Memes is a League of Legends meme forum, not a league of Memes.

to me it sounds a lot like user experience got wrapped up into expressing yourself, which is a very modern view. UX is of course very important, especially if you want your visitors to be able to get to and read your words. but to make it the most important part of making a personal website? sounds like you don't know why people make personal websites, or what the meaning of personal is.

nothing will make me purchase someone's products if they try to guilt people into purchasing their products. like that's it I'm never going to purchase from you again. Even if I want to.

I am worried about people not taking vaccines when they should because I care about public health.

but what I'm more worried about is vaccinations being socialized similarly to drugs, where if someone like me wants a vaccine that goes against the government's recommendations,they have some boiler language about how vaccines are not good for your body and they cannot be administered legally.

they tell you to avoid added sugars but what they don't tell you is that everything has added sugars

Oh I hate it when TV shows pretend that the TV band wrote a popular song. give me something original.

I think what bothers me about super obvious science articles coming out and then people getting upset that we're putting our money in something so obvious is that those same people ask for scientific evidence of anything they disagree with. No matter how mundane it is.

I saw an angry comic book nerd comment on Reddit about Peacemaker season 2 and what a waste of time and resources it was to make a second season about a superhero no one gives a shit about and it made me want to watch it (starting with season 1 of course) and it's the best DC related thing I've ever seen so thanks mad reddit person.

still got it (people are using my birthday as an excuse to reach out to me to have sex)

me when I forgot to take my meds (together, 2025)

people think you're lying if you say you're happy single. there's no convincing them, because they have not been single long enough to know that they could be happy too.

how are we supposed to arm ourselves with sandwiches if we can't afford them

Performance, like productivity, isn’t about holding everything in. It’s about creating flow through intentional release. Whether you're following your natural movements or the rhythm of another cycle, it's important to get it all out before starting again.

(This is a post about poop AND work.)

it's very weird and alarming how many posts on LinkedIn there are about how nobody has any original thoughts anymore and then the comments are full of people saying stuff like yes! this is why I have to make sure I form my own opinion before I read the comments.

y'all..

I wish I was a millionaire peanut grower presenting myself as a regular farmer

I wish there was another way to find out if your tent had a hole other than, I'm camping right now and it's raining.

sometimes at campsites in the morning parents lay on their car horns to wake up their kids and I know that you're out here struggling but what the fuck

when you poop on your birthday it's a special birthday poop. You're getting in touch with all of your poops throughout time

just like early humans when the light is lost I make do.. during the day, I read a paperback. at night I read on my phone.

last night as I was trying to fall asleep I heard cymbals in the bugs

say this 10 times fast: orange’s origins

but I don't want less legs :(

I love that I have to pick up my dumb cat and place her in front of her food for her to understand that I have fed her. she is always so thankful. she has so much anxiety.

need to start using the phrase "pussy clenching" to describe thrilling intensity

who knew that the internet wouldn't actually get much better and we should have stayed in 2001 and before

I would have a panic attack if somebody help me at gunpoint and stole my car on the highway so I'm really glad that I don't live in Korean dramas.

I'm seeing YouTube age verification going a few ways.

I'm definitely old, I listen to a lot of music from the '90s.

I'm definitely a teenager, I listen to a lot of music from the '90s which my parents just showed to me recently.

I'm definitely in my young twenties. I look for a lot of lectures and scholarly videos, so I'm clearly in college.

I'm definitely a man. I look up DIY and self-help frequently so that I don't have to call people and pay them money.

how many different people can I be to one app? I wonder.

hate it when you're eating pretzels and then you get a piece of pretzel stuck to the top of your mouth for the rest of your life

it's not just a distraction. you think he's doing these awful things to distract from some files, but what it's making you do is only talk about those files. instead of analyzing why he's doing something, you're stopping at "He's just distracting from the files"

yeah let's get rid of all of our analysis and knowledge and focus only on one thing. I know that he's hiding that, but he's also doing a lot more.

gaming industry kills games with DLC and pay to play and shitty releases but should have waited another couple of months of development.

news article: Gen Z is killing the video game industry because they're spending money on groceries instead

on Monster Hunter cosplaying as a Monster Hunter

SCRAM! How scrum masters get people moving

I like a yummy treat here and there but what I don't like is the nausea and bathroom time for the next 4 days. So no I'm not healthy by choice.

"the government, generally, is not constitutionally allowed to favor one type of content or idea by suppressing or otherwise burdening another type of content or idea"

huh. do you think the government knows this?

https://sgp.fas.org/crs/misc/95-815.pdf

learning about people makes me very interested in learning more about people but learning about governments makes me want to murder

I'll meet you at the intersection of sex and psychology

it's very human to limit your reality to your assumptions so I can't fault you for it.

I think it's time for us to draw up new requirements for becoming president.

I have the financial memory of a sponge. Why do I only have $500 on my credit card? Oh yeah it's because I replaced my windshield last week.

my body is free

free, sinking into the river

I started making a dot in a journal every time I leave my house and it turns out that I leave my house actually quite frequently! I just don't do it to see people very often.

interesting how my perspective of how often I go out is influenced so heavily by whether it's intended to be a social outing or not.

moist boy and anarchist girl in love

we're all in the dating pool. every single person looking for a date is in the dating pool. we have to look for the people who are playing the games that we want to play and introduce ourselves.

many people frame choice like, I got in the dating pool and I didn't see anyone playing the game I wanted to play, so there are no choices for me. but the reality is everyone in that dating pool is a choice for you, but you have decided no. it's not that there's no one in the dating pool. it's that you exercised your power to choose.

The neighborhood kids think I'm a weirdo

one of the places we are all equals is waiting in the 5-seat waiting room at Safelite because glass damage can happen at any time and none of us are immune

getting online used to be fun

people who talk about the "rise of" something in their community but it's something that's been happening for decades, only they just discovered it. sometimes the "rise of" something is just that it's becoming more prominent in the writer's life.

every once in a while I think about how if I just do stuff, it will get done. but there's this weird pesky thing where 5 hours feels like 1 minute and now it's midnight and I'm sleepy

I'm in a bad mood today because I had a sex dream about one of my co-workers. is it time to self-delete

I like the evolution of language and how many people in Reddit are complaining about how all of this language came out of TikTok to get past the censors.

I like it because there are always comments hundreds of comments talking about how this bastardization of language is happening because of social media filters. No, maybe it was originally, but now it's part of the language. That's what language does. we're going to see words like grape and unalive and PDF file and self-delete everywhere for decades.

the drive home isn't the end

the journey is over only once I walk the threshold into my home

love is going to bed early just so you can enjoy the sound of others awake long past you

don't violate the dunes

people never stopped making zines

you did

small website communities never died

you stopped making websites

just because you stopped doesn't mean they stopped

not sure how people keep a straight face every Sunday while someone yells "Jesus wants to be inside you" at you

"they are manufacturing a scenario where" no. they are not that smart. they are convinced something that's not real is happening and acting accordingly.

stop trying to make sense of things but attributing intelligence and strategy where it is void. the rich leaders are playing house and they don't care about the fallout.

me putting Obon in my calendar every year: obob

without the internet I would not have so many opportunities to be correct about literally everything

alternative reality where we punished everyone involved in the Jan 6 events

I imagine that when a war is starting you hear several waves of military helicopters flying overhead towards the capital just like I got to experience today

I got a transplant from a serial killer and now I too enjoy murder

something clicked earlier while I was driving early evening with the sky turning grey and I felt beyond all the bs for a moment. just a few minutes.

The feeling when you forget to get a straw so you convince yourself the superior way to drink smoothies is without a straw

pride: alone at a party where 300 people understand me

I'm like if a guy was an aunt.

(I saw a tweet screen cap that said "I'm like if a girl was an uncle" and it felt not quite right for me)

let's have a manga mango party

things I've said to my cat: I HOPE YOU DIDN'T LICK MY APPLES

crying everyday not because I hate everything but because I forgot to take my meds

my lessons learned today is to never use made up words in word feud because you just might end up putting down an incredibly racist word without realizing it.

also I could use THAT but it wouldn't let me put down YEET? wow.

it happened to me: a GROWN ADULT MAN was obnoxiously watching TikTok on the train with the sound at full volume. it could happen to you.

I still constantly have ideas for ACNH and redoing my island to perfection. But every idea is a NEW idea not a new area of my previous idea so I'd have to really dedicate myself to it and ... nah.

instead of "girl code" or "bro code" let's have "matching genitals club"

blue cheese and sweet mango habanero

dying with the fire

love having allergies (dried blood all over my body)

what if we always had Fridays and Mondays off and not because we used PTO

thinking about how white people think brown people are all criminals but white history is literally filled with tales of white people robbing brown people of their livelihood or feeling entitled to their things.

we are, but

my anxiety and your anxiety

are not friends.

head empty, heart empty

it probably feels really good to be a cat and have another cat lick you with their sandpaper tongue. I bet it scratches all the itches.

papercut? no. aluminum can cut.

I got the recommended amount of steps yesterday then went to bed at 9pm and woke up dehydrated, spent all day nauseated and with a headache. #exercise!

you are not "just here," "stuck," "unmoving" just because all of your friends are getting new jobs and new homes and new boyfriends and new pets. you are not standing still just because they seem to be moving. you are also moving. you are moving differently. rest is not the opposite of movement, it is part of the process.

dissociating in the grocery store line behind someone with $400 of food to check out

enjoying my Monday snack (lots of Dr. Pepper)

I did manage to get myself out of bed (feeling the pangs of hunger) after daydreaming someone liked me. I made a bagel and scraped the fantasy away with the application of cream cheese. Cream cheese is worth my full, present attention.

I am grateful to be aware that the hiccups have stopped, even though I don't remember when they did.

woke up in total silence. is it lunchtime? am I at work? did I fall asleep in front of the computer?

opened my eyes to find my phone in my lap, screen up, with my virtual meditation teacher on the floor breathing deeply.

My phone did a complete UI update. I hate it.

turned off the radio to listen to the rain drops against the windshield

today my mom left me in an alley.

it was only for 5 minutes.

I took pictures and imagined myself as a baby abandoned in the alley. after picking up the mail she got back into the car and then we drove across 3 states in 27 minutes.

this is perfect.

today I went grocery shopping and didn't meet the love of my life after a nap and when I got home it started raining.