thoughts

still got it (people are using my birthday as an excuse to reach out to me to have sex)

me when I forgot to take my meds (together, 2025)

people think you're lying if you say you're happy single. there's no convincing them, because they have not been single long enough to know that they could be happy too.

how are we supposed to arm ourselves with sandwiches if we can't afford them

Performance, like productivity, isn’t about holding everything in. It’s about creating flow through intentional release. Whether you're following your natural movements or the rhythm of another cycle, it's important to get it all out before starting again.

(This is a post about poop AND work.)

it's very weird and alarming how many posts on LinkedIn there are about how nobody has any original thoughts anymore and then the comments are full of people saying stuff like yes! this is why I have to make sure I form my own opinion before I read the comments.

y'all..

I wish I was a millionaire peanut grower presenting myself as a regular farmer

I wish there was another way to find out if your tent had a hole other than, I'm camping right now and it's raining.

sometimes at campsites in the morning parents lay on their car horns to wake up their kids and I know that you're out here struggling but what the fuck

when you poop on your birthday it's a special birthday poop. You're getting in touch with all of your poops throughout time

just like early humans when the light is lost I make do.. during the day, I read a paperback. at night I read on my phone.

last night as I was trying to fall asleep I heard cymbals in the bugs

say this 10 times fast: orange’s origins

but I don't want less legs :(

I love that I have to pick up my dumb cat and place her in front of her food for her to understand that I have fed her. she is always so thankful. she has so much anxiety.

need to start using the phrase "pussy clenching" to describe thrilling intensity

who knew that the internet wouldn't actually get much better and we should have stayed in 2001 and before

I would have a panic attack if somebody help me at gunpoint and stole my car on the highway so I'm really glad that I don't live in Korean dramas.

I'm seeing YouTube age verification going a few ways.

I'm definitely old, I listen to a lot of music from the '90s.

I'm definitely a teenager, I listen to a lot of music from the '90s which my parents just showed to me recently.

I'm definitely in my young twenties. I look for a lot of lectures and scholarly videos, so I'm clearly in college.

I'm definitely a man. I look up DIY and self-help frequently so that I don't have to call people and pay them money.

how many different people can I be to one app? I wonder.

hate it when you're eating pretzels and then you get a piece of pretzel stuck to the top of your mouth for the rest of your life

it's not just a distraction. you think he's doing these awful things to distract from some files, but what it's making you do is only talk about those files. instead of analyzing why he's doing something, you're stopping at "He's just distracting from the files"

yeah let's get rid of all of our analysis and knowledge and focus only on one thing. I know that he's hiding that, but he's also doing a lot more.

gaming industry kills games with DLC and pay to play and shitty releases but should have waited another couple of months of development.

news article: Gen Z is killing the video game industry because they're spending money on groceries instead

on Monster Hunter cosplaying as a Monster Hunter

SCRAM! How scrum masters get people moving

I like a yummy treat here and there but what I don't like is the nausea and bathroom time for the next 4 days. So no I'm not healthy by choice.

"the government, generally, is not constitutionally allowed to favor one type of content or idea by suppressing or otherwise burdening another type of content or idea"

huh. do you think the government knows this?

https://sgp.fas.org/crs/misc/95-815.pdf

learning about people makes me very interested in learning more about people but learning about governments makes me want to murder

I'll meet you at the intersection of sex and psychology

it's very human to limit your reality to your assumptions so I can't fault you for it.

I think it's time for us to draw up new requirements for becoming president.

I have the financial memory of a sponge. Why do I only have $500 on my credit card? Oh yeah it's because I replaced my windshield last week.

my body is free

free, sinking into the river

I started making a dot in a journal every time I leave my house and it turns out that I leave my house actually quite frequently! I just don't do it to see people very often.

interesting how my perspective of how often I go out is influenced so heavily by whether it's intended to be a social outing or not.

moist boy and anarchist girl in love

we're all in the dating pool. every single person looking for a date is in the dating pool. we have to look for the people who are playing the games that we want to play and introduce ourselves.

many people frame choice like, I got in the dating pool and I didn't see anyone playing the game I wanted to play, so there are no choices for me. but the reality is everyone in that dating pool is a choice for you, but you have decided no. it's not that there's no one in the dating pool. it's that you exercised your power to choose.

The neighborhood kids think I'm a weirdo

one of the places we are all equals is waiting in the 5-seat waiting room at Safelite because glass damage can happen at any time and none of us are immune

getting online used to be fun

people who talk about the "rise of" something in their community but it's something that's been happening for decades, only they just discovered it. sometimes the "rise of" something is just that it's becoming more prominent in the writer's life.

every once in a while I think about how if I just do stuff, it will get done. but there's this weird pesky thing where 5 hours feels like 1 minute and now it's midnight and I'm sleepy

I'm in a bad mood today because I had a sex dream about one of my co-workers. is it time to self-delete

I like the evolution of language and how many people in Reddit are complaining about how all of this language came out of TikTok to get past the censors.

I like it because there are always comments hundreds of comments talking about how this bastardization of language is happening because of social media filters. No, maybe it was originally, but now it's part of the language. That's what language does. we're going to see words like grape and unalive and PDF file and self-delete everywhere for decades.

the drive home isn't the end

the journey is over only once I walk the threshold into my home

love is going to bed early just so you can enjoy the sound of others awake long past you

don't violate the dunes

people never stopped making zines

you did

small website communities never died

you stopped making websites

just because you stopped doesn't mean they stopped

not sure how people keep a straight face every Sunday while someone yells "Jesus wants to be inside you" at you

"they are manufacturing a scenario where" no. they are not that smart. they are convinced something that's not real is happening and acting accordingly.

stop trying to make sense of things but attributing intelligence and strategy where it is void. the rich leaders are playing house and they don't care about the fallout.

me putting Obon in my calendar every year: obob

without the internet I would not have so many opportunities to be correct about literally everything

alternative reality where we punished everyone involved in the Jan 6 events

I imagine that when a war is starting you hear several waves of military helicopters flying overhead towards the capital just like I got to experience today

I got a transplant from a serial killer and now I too enjoy murder

something clicked earlier while I was driving early evening with the sky turning grey and I felt beyond all the bs for a moment. just a few minutes.

The feeling when you forget to get a straw so you convince yourself the superior way to drink smoothies is without a straw

pride: alone at a party where 300 people understand me

I'm like if a guy was an aunt.

(I saw a tweet screen cap that said "I'm like if a girl was an uncle" and it felt not quite right for me)

let's have a manga mango party

things I've said to my cat: I HOPE YOU DIDN'T LICK MY APPLES

crying everyday not because I hate everything but because I forgot to take my meds

my lessons learned today is to never use made up words in word feud because you just might end up putting down an incredibly racist word without realizing it.

also I could use THAT but it wouldn't let me put down YEET? wow.

it happened to me: a GROWN ADULT MAN was obnoxiously watching TikTok on the train with the sound at full volume. it could happen to you.

I still constantly have ideas for ACNH and redoing my island to perfection. But every idea is a NEW idea not a new area of my previous idea so I'd have to really dedicate myself to it and ... nah.

instead of "girl code" or "bro code" let's have "matching genitals club"

blue cheese and sweet mango habanero

dying with the fire

love having allergies (dried blood all over my body)

what if we always had Fridays and Mondays off and not because we used PTO

thinking about how white people think brown people are all criminals but white history is literally filled with tales of white people robbing brown people of their livelihood or feeling entitled to their things.

we are, but

my anxiety and your anxiety

are not friends.

head empty, heart empty

it probably feels really good to be a cat and have another cat lick you with their sandpaper tongue. I bet it scratches all the itches.

papercut? no. aluminum can cut.

I got the recommended amount of steps yesterday then went to bed at 9pm and woke up dehydrated, spent all day nauseated and with a headache. #exercise!

you are not "just here," "stuck," "unmoving" just because all of your friends are getting new jobs and new homes and new boyfriends and new pets. you are not standing still just because they seem to be moving. you are also moving. you are moving differently. rest is not the opposite of movement, it is part of the process.

dissociating in the grocery store line behind someone with $400 of food to check out

enjoying my Monday snack (lots of Dr. Pepper)

I did manage to get myself out of bed (feeling the pangs of hunger) after daydreaming someone liked me. I made a bagel and scraped the fantasy away with the application of cream cheese. Cream cheese is worth my full, present attention.

I am grateful to be aware that the hiccups have stopped, even though I don't remember when they did.

woke up in total silence. is it lunchtime? am I at work? did I fall asleep in front of the computer?

opened my eyes to find my phone in my lap, screen up, with my virtual meditation teacher on the floor breathing deeply.

My phone did a complete UI update. I hate it.

turned off the radio to listen to the rain drops against the windshield

today my mom left me in an alley.

it was only for 5 minutes.

I took pictures and imagined myself as a baby abandoned in the alley. after picking up the mail she got back into the car and then we drove across 3 states in 27 minutes.

this is perfect.

today I went grocery shopping and didn't meet the love of my life after a nap and when I got home it started raining.